My first theory was that of a "mini-hangover". I'm highly doubtful that this could be the cause because I barely drank at all last night. I doubt two beers would give me a hangover the next morning.
Then, I thought of the fan that was directly hitting my face as I slept last night. This could be a likely cause seeing as how cold air rushing towards me at a consistent pace seems to give me a headache about 50% of the time.
I also figured that it could have stemmed from the cleaning products I was using today while begrudgingly cleaning my house. (I say begrudgingly because I really don't see the point of cleaning when Halo Reach is calling out to me and I could really use another round of Slayer to get my mind off of things...like cleaning). However, I did make sure to use the organic cleaning products so as to avoid a headache meaning that perhaps, this notion isn't valid at all.
It could have come from stress. I've had a lot of that the past couple of days and it wouldn't surprise me if my headache came from that.
How are we supposed to live our lives freely when there are a million and one things to be worrying about? I can't even sit in my own room and relax because my brain just doesn't shut up. I keep thinking of everything I didn't do, and everything I should do, and everything that needs to be done. I think of who I need to help and in what ways I could help them. What brings me down is the realization that I'm limited with what I can do. All of these thoughts keep my head spinning.
And then... to top it all off, I feel... lonely.
I know, I'm not alone at all. I have my family and my wonderful boyfriend but there's only so much he can handle.
I need a friend. A close friend. I want a Samwise Gamgee. That's soo hard to find though. I have my share of male friends, but there is nothing like having a female companion. Don't get me wrong, girls are all about drama and annoyingness at times, I admit to this, which is why I have refrained from having any girl friends. But it takes a toll on a girl when she can't talk about feelings with a friend because they're a guy who just doesn't like to talk about feelings at all. This is where a girl friend would come in. The problem is, the ones I know ONLY care about one person... themselves. They jabber on about themselves and despite the fact that I text or call just to ask how they are WITHOUT being asked.... they never seem to do the same for me. Girls really are selfish. Ugh.
I just want a Samwise. Is that too much to ask for?
.... I think I've figured out where my headache is from... but I'll just pretend it was the fan.
